You know that feeling of pure fear? The feeling that you really don't want to anymore. That you find it so scary that you sincerely doubt whether you should continue. I have that feeling on the roller coaster. I feel very unhappy in such a thing. Nevertheless, I decide to step in, because resistance is growth. My name is Liesbeth Uithol and I am writing about my life as a digital nomad.
Knowing is unequal to feeling
I know that the chance that I will fall out is not that great. I know things won't just break. But I feel resistance to everything in my body. If I didn't have children, I would give in to that resistance. I would never go on a rollercoaster again in my long-lived-she-lives. But my kids like to see me 'suffer'. It literally makes them laugh. The louder I indicate that I really don't want to anymore, the harder they laugh. I have bad children.
urge to prove
My immature ego wants to prove to my children that I 'really' dare. And so I don't give in to that resistance and step into such a miserable line over and over again. That resistance; that feeling of really not wanting anymore can also arise at a somewhat 'more important' point in my life. When I make a choice entirely for my own growth.
A great personal development. A wonderful business success. The decision whether or not to buy a house. Publishing a book.
That last one is the scariest thing I ever did
As if I have bare my soul and ask the whole world: 'Find some of me….' “Give me your plain opinion…” In the process of publishing my book, there was no one to appeal to my immature ego. No one who said;' You don't dare do that!' No one dared me to do it.
There was a group of people who assumed I was going to do it anyway. ('You always fix everything, Lies') There was a group that openly doubted my abilities.('But who would want to read your book??') (as if I knew that……)
And in between was myself. Confident. Full of fear and doubts. At moments like this, the feeling is allowed to go 'off'. Confidence in the plan should prevail.
Also read: the 7 steps to Digital Nomad
With full fear ahead
Jump with a healthy lack of confidence. Do it without any proof. Because deep down you know, when I get off that roller coaster, I'm as proud as a peacock. Resistance is an attempt by the primal brain to keep you 'safe'. So as not to waste energy. Where do you experience this resistance? Where would you like to go a step further in your life, but are you not so good at?
Free living equals resistance
When you have the wish to live more freely, you can take it for granted that you will experience resistance. From all angles. Expected and unexpected. That resistance will come. In the form of family and friends who 'like it', in the form of 'a great job' that presents itself. In the form of 'a beautiful house' which is suddenly for sale. In the form of an unplanned pregnancy.
Does that sound bizarre? It is. As soon as you have made a choice that will transcend 'the norm', a weather city will come at you in the most bizarre forms. And how do you deal with that? Does it make you restless? Will you calmly follow your path? Keep your cool and keep walking in the direction you were going. Have faith. Besides the fear. There may be.
Which wish or choice gives you resistance? Where do you not dare so much anymore? Feel free to share it with me. Maybe I can be that 'nasty child' for you that makes you go through the resistance and become proud of yourself afterwards.
PS† my book is now ready. I still feel nauseous when someone orders it. But also as Proud As A Peacock. <3
An open, honest and raw book that on the one hand takes you into the travel adventures that Liesbeth made with her family and on the other hand offers tools to be able to work and travel location independently.
The book is easy to read, is practical and written with humor and shows that where there is a will there is a way. In other words, that the 'dream' of many people can really be realized if you commit.
A must have for every Digital Nomad to be!
Love, Lisbeth.
